Breakfast challenge

OKay, "they" say that those who eat breakfast on a regular basis lose more weight, more frequently and keep it off longer than those who do not eat breakfast.  And, when "they" say breakfast they mean within 2 hours of waking up!  "They" also say to always combine fat and fiber.  So, peanut butter and wheat toast or an egg and a side of oatmeal.

So, the challenge this week is to eat breakfast EVERY DAY!  My problem is that it is all in the planning and I'm lazy when it comes to planning.  That is the major part of the challenge!

I accept this challenge!

Sore, but a good sore!

This past Friday was my first Kung Fu workout and yep, I'm sore.  But, it is a good sore!  Even though I joined a good gym just before Christmas I'm not going on a regular basis --- actually, not going at all except on Mondays for my Transformation Club meetings.  So, by committing myself to something for someone else I'm trying to trick myself into working out...I think it is going to work!

God is everywhere!

Confessions of a fat woman!

I had a bag of pretzels and decided it might be tasty to add some butter and seasonings to them!  So, I mixed about 3 tbsp. of butter and some seasonings that sounded good to me.  Tossed it all together and popped them in the oven and guess what!!!!!

God said, uh, hello!  Haven't you been asking me for help and haven't you been telling everyone you are working on your health?  Guess you are needing a helping hand, hear let me burn these up for you and take away that temptation.   So, he did!  A half-sheet full of pretzels burned beyond recognition - thank you Lord!  Temptation avoided! 

I love it when he does that - steps right in and takes over for me when I'm being stupid or weak!  Thank goodness, God is everywhere!

A work in progress

I'm still struggling to adopt better eating habits.  I have my lean cuisines but crave eating lunch out during the day - it just helps to get out ot the office and break up the day.  I feel like no matter how much I eat I'm just not satisfied.  I really think that my martial arts class is going to help motivate me to eat better once I start doing something good for my body.

I have to keep telling myself that I am a work in progress.  I tell myself that this is a marathon not a sprint.  It took me years of bad decisions to get this way and it will take a while to retrain my brain and my body.  I'm a steam engine train and while it is taking me a lot of time to get up the steam, once I get started I will be on my way!

A better day!

Today has been a better day...not perfect by any means but a better day.  Tomorrow is the big day to start the martial arts study - looking forward to it! 

Here we go!

Ever since finding out that I will be part of the research study I have been hell bent to eat anything and everything bad for me!  This has been bugging me all day, why have I gone on a binge?  It's not like I'm starting some die-hard diet on Monday, I'm just going to work out for an hour after work - what is the big deal, why is my subconscious rebeling?  I THINK, perhaps, it is a last-ditch effort by my subconscious to keep me down - what is it in my head that does this to me?  I would never fling such destructive measures on a friend or family member so why do I do it to myself?  Why am I not worth it?

This is what I would say to a friend...How exciting!  You can do it!  You are soooo worth it!  You are going to feel and look great!  Embrace this great opportunity and find yourself!

So, Kat, ......Go for it!  Embrace this opportunity!  Enjoy this opportunity!  You don't have to give anything up, just go and enjoy the moment!  You can still eat and enjoy foods you love!  Think about how much you enjoyed ballet as a little girl!  Remember how 6 - 8 hours at the barn was nothing but pure bliss!  Go, embrace this opportunity to find your inner athlete!  She is still there, deep inside, ready to come out and kick your ass for leaving her alone for so long!  Get you ass off the sofa and find ever day opportunitites to stretch and work those muscles.  You've accomplished academic goals so I know you can accomplish this goal of attaining a fit mind and a fit body!  You go girl!  As Cheryl Swoops once said, "kick ass and take names later!"  Stop saying you can't depend on yourself to start this and see it through - you CAN and you WILL do this and in doing so you will help others!

Here we go!

sabotage

It seems that my whole life I have some how sabotaged my success regarding my physical, emotional, and romantic health.  I think maybe I predict my failure in these areas of my life and therefore some how, some way subconsciously or consciously do things to prohibit my even "going there" so that I don't get disappointed or hurt by someone other than myself.....wow, I should have put my rubber barn boots on for that long and poopy statement of self!!!  ;-)

I seem to be a master at self sabotage.  So!  I'm trying to turn that "strength" into a positive.  I am setting myself up for my greater good by enlisting in opportunities that make my actions, or lack of them, directly impact others also.  See how tricky I can be to myself!  Case in point, I have been accepted to participate in a case study through University Medical Center regarding premenapausal women and exercise.  I even agreed to have my blood taken every 6 wks to be a part of this study that will force me to do 1 hour of exercise with a group of other like bodied women three times a week and for those of you who know about me and bloodletting, well, you KNOW how big that is!

I start on Monday and while I have let myself down so many times when it comes to taking care of my own health (physical, emotional, etc.) that I can't seem to get excited about the possibility of my losing weight through this program at least I feel better knowing I can't back out and it WILL happen!  I've also joined a local group called The Transition Club that is a group of like bodied folks who get together once a week to give each other pep talks and emotional support.  I feel now a responsibility to go to the meetings since I have committed to someone other than myself to do so.   I think eventually both my mindset and my body will begin to recognize changes that occur due to these committments to others that I am making.        

See, there can be a positive side to self sabotage and I'm here to document every falter backward and every step foward!

New day

Okay, today is a new day.  Let's see what I can do with it!

Struggles

I know what I should be eating and what I shouldn't be eating.  So, why does the bad stuff win out.  Why can't I treat myself with love and eat the right things rather than poison my body and my mind with bad food and bad behavior.  Perhaps I'm afraid of actually losing weight and getting healthy but why?  What am I afraid of?  Why can I help others but not myself?